Well, the day isn’t over yet, but I don’t think we are going to be meeting our son today. 😦
This gives me comfort and sums up how I am feeling though. I can’t believe he will be here any day! I am truly blessed.
Child, Light to my soul-shadow, my confusion
Coming sweetly, and so small
Growing within, a stealth, a mystery—
I am moved by this simplicity.
Transfixed with thanks, folded in love,
I cannot adore enough,
I cannot speak.
Like trees and snow and stars and street,
I too am silent in the widening light.
Myrna Reid Grant
tomorrow or not? Who thinks Baby J will come when he he is supposed to and who thinks it will be later?
I am REALLY hoping for tomorrow! The suspense is killing me!
Sunday: Oscar, my sweet little dog, gets REALLY sick.
Monday AM: Start Oscar on meds and isolation.
Monday PM: AC upstairs decides to bug out for the 2nd time this summer.
Tuesday AM: Spend morning and lunch with my mom, sis, niece Brianna at my sweet grandparents house. Got to take a nap! Rush home to meet AC guy only to find AC working properly. Nothing he can do.
Tuesday PM: BTW this is the time my dad predicted that Baby J would make his appearance…he did not. Anyhoo, AC bugs out again!
Wednesday AM: Call AC guy again. Contacts start bugging me and figure out that I might be allergic to my solution. Go to bank, Post Office and get lunch for Sheila and I. Come home to have lunch and meet the AC guy and guess what?? AC is working properly again! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Seriously, what else is going to happen this week? Maybe I will have a baby?? Who the heck knows?
Gifts so far this week:
a nap on my grandma’s couch
an amazing lunch at my grandma’s
an amazing lunch w/ my dear friend
a husband that is the man of my dreams
peanut butter cup ice-cream 🙂
I am going to be a mom. Wow. Even though he has been, as Chad puts it “butting around,” inside me for the past 9 months, it still doesn’t seem real. I feel his little feet and knees and elbows and legs constantly pushing up and out. I feel his hiccups on what seems like a daily basis. I can feel him tensing up for a jump or roll and I still don’t believe it is actually going to happen. He has a name, and clothes, and a crib, and books for me to read to him and toys to interest him. And I am soooooo impatient to meet him and yet, still not real.
I went to the dr. today and nothing! He is still in there and no where near coming out to meet me! 🙂 I was very disappointed. But I don’t think it has sunk in that it will no longer be just Chad and me. I have had my sweet husband all to myself for the past 5 years and now we will have a little person who takes our time and attention. It is a bittersweet thought. We are soooooo excited about Baby J, but I am going to miss my Chad time whenever I want it. Just some random thoughts. I am rambling and I am hungry so I go to find a snack. 🙂